Reflection ) Life gets way easier when you can release your mind and follow the water flow

It was one of the most hectic days in our meditation centre.

Our centre used to be quite slow.

After a few months of opening in-person meditation sessions again, more and more people are visiting and gathering.

One day, 4 different groups of people came to the centre at the same time UNEXPECTEDLY, and I was out of my mind. Haha..

My life priority is changing

My life-style priority has always been about being relaxed and balanced.

I like people, but I get easily tired when I am meeting people for too long.

So, I had only planned for meetings 1-2 times in a week.

I preferred being alone or with someone with whom I fully feel comfortable.

It was my Balance.

Otherwise, I directly felt overwhelmed.

Now,

my situation is not something I can fully manage given my condition.

I felt the need to change my old habits.

When too many people visit, I struggle and become overwhelmed.

And these kinds of thoughts automatically come up, ‘I want to rest by myself..’

That is indeed a problem.

Because

I truly wish for this meditation centre to be a place where everybody can come whenever they would like and stay as long as they want.

I hope this centre becomes the most comfortable and cozy place for everyone.

For that, I needed to reflect on my mind and make changes.

(Changing..Haha😅)

My reflection

I tried to reflect on my mind by writing in a journal. 📖✏️

(This is on of the methods/courses in meditation.)

What kind of mind is it that gets blocked in that situation?

One,

I could see myself trying to ‘Manage the situation as I wanted it to be’.

I felt overwhelmed because the situation was unpredictable and uncontrollable.

Deep down, maybe I wanted to be a Ruler of the world. Haha🤣

Two,

Another mind was that I was ‘Judging people’.

Surrounded by all the people, I could see myself continuously thinking, ‘Someone is like this or like that, this is good or bad, right or wrong blah blah..’

That noises in my head were really eating up my energy little by little.

Three,

The last one that I found was ‘when I’m with others, I just feel burdened

by thinking that I have to do something for them. I easily sense what people need or want and automatically feel like I have to do things that way’.

This is one of my bad habits.

I couldn’t naturally be myself but tried hard to take care of people.

It made me feel uncomfortable just being with others.

Meditation

I closed my eyes.

Tried to let go of those minds.

I genuinely wished that none of those minds, nor myself, would block people from coming to the centre and meditating.

During meditation,

I realized that I was standing in a strong current, blocking the flow of nature.

What I should do was simply release and let the flow guide me.

After meditation, I didn’t feel overwhelmed at all, and everything was so easy.

Life wisdom is always simple.

When I felt something is too hard to do or overwhelmed,

most of the time it was me who didn’t follow the way everything is going but resisting.

What I always need in those moments is to,

Stop

Breath

Release the tension

And read the flow, then go with it.

I love this meditation and hope as many people as possible can exprience it.

For that, I want myself as an instructor to be a person who can always welcome people with a full heart and let each person do what they want.

And I know I can do it, because I have this method of reflecting and letting go.

"Live like a nature."